I am a Sagan Pagan. An atheist Pagan. This does not make me popular with either the Pagans or the Atheists. I understand why. I still cannot come to terms with “almost vegetarians” or “Christo-Pagans” (sorry – just can’t!)
I am a Pagan. I honor Pagan Gods and Goddesses. I tell their stories. I keep altars to them. I keep holy the Sabbats. I pilgrim. I participate in rituals. I am a Witch. I have sucked a goat’s teat. I spellcraft. I scry. I stay active in my Pagan community. I love Gerald Gardner and Margaret Murray. I have kissed Raymond Buckland. That’s right – give it to me old school baby.
I am an atheist. Because I don’t believe any of it is REAL. Not real in that I don’t believe there is an actual being floating around us, caring about us, etc. I do not believe in “energy”. Maybe it’s because I have been Pagan for so long. Before Witchcraft blended with New Age or Neo-Paganism.
Chris’ Elder Gods are awesome. They are true. They are REAL. You would think I would totally be on board. But I’m not. I mean, I do worship the Elder Gods. But I worship the Younger Gods too.
I want a deity that gives me a story, an example, a framework for my life. I want a deity who has menstruated. I want a deity who has birthed a baby. I want a deity who found her lover in the arms of another. I want a deity who has held her mother dying. The Younger Gods. Birth, growth, love, wisdom, pain, death. I want examples. I want inspiration. I put human faces and stories on my Gods. Because I can. Because as a Sagan Pagan, I make it all up as I go!
So, who am I working with? Lately it has been “Birth Goddess”. Often Tlazolteotl or Artemis. What do I know about them historically? Well, I have Wikipedia. I know that Tlazolteotl is a bad ass and can get a baby out. I know that Artemis’ first act in life was to turn and midwife out her brother. I know someone thought birth was worth making up these stories about and that I find inspiration in them.
Is that Inanna I see walking down the street? I think I’d like to work with her! Is there, or has there ever been, a more incredible, awesome, powerful woman in the universe? An awesome woman like me needs an awesome Goddess like Inanna. Please read Innana, Queen of Heaven and Earth by Wolkstein and Kramer.
“Great queen of queens, issue of a holy womb for righteous divine powers, greater than your own mother, wise and sage, lady of all the foreign lands, life-force of the teeming people: I will recite your holy song! True goddess fit for divine powers, your splendid utterances are magnificent. Deep-hearted, good woman with a radiant heart, I will enumerate your divine powers for you!”
And then, of course, there is Ganesha. Just typing his name makes him happy! And me happy! Ganesh is the remover of obstacles. When I am worried, I try to imagine the details of a real, earth side Ganesha. The elephant coarse fuzz on his ears ( I recall when I once rode an elephant as a child), his hairy man chest, his broken tusk. He loves it, and I feel better. I recommend reading Loving Ganesha.
Which brings me to a sore spot. Especially for a Sagan Pagan. Cultural co-optation. I don’t want to be a part of it! I asked T. Thorn Coyle what she thought, and she said if I didn’t own a Kali lunchbox I was fine. But I do own a Kali lunchbox. Cuss.
And so to end this, I recall a story about a man who is on a cruise ship. There is a terrible accident and the man is left on a chunk of ship alone with a circus tiger. He has many adventures, always with the tiger. He is eventually rescued. On his death bed, his great grandson asks if the story of the ship and the tiger is true. He confesses that he made up the part about the tiger. But didn’t it make the story more interesting? That is how I feel about religion. I think the tiger makes life more interesting. Chris says that makes the storyteller a manipulator.
That may be the most I have ever typed in my life.
What do you think?
4 thoughts on “Melanie’s response to "Who’s your patron deity?"”
Have you ever heard of the Mesopotamian goddess Ninmah, whose name means “Lady of Birth”?
Those “omega” images on either side of her are thought to be uteruses, and she is of course surrounded by newborns. Unfortunately, not a lot of mythology about her, I suspect because the people doing all the praying and spellwork invoking her were midwives, mothers in labor, and probably anxious dads-to-be, not professional scribes leisurely writing hymns in a temple.
Then of course, this image of Hathor, which I made my Facebook icon when I was pregnant and coming up on my due date:
I'm told by friends who go to Egypt regularly that there are Egyptian women who still go to the “djinn” they call “Cow Lady” when they want to conceive 😀
My sense is that it isn't cultural appropriation if you use it as a lens to look more deeply into your own culture. So when you look at your Kali lunchbox with your Witch Eye, what do you see? How do you say “Kali” in Witch?
To my mind, it's perfectly cool e.g. for a Chango priest reading the Eddas to say: “Whoa, they called Chango 'Thor', and this is how they saw him. Check it out.” Chances are you'll learn something about Chango by seeing how the Thor-folks thought about him. But if he just adds Thor to the list of “gods-I-like” (Chango, Yemaya, Oshun, Odduduwa, Thor): that's cultural appropriation. The heart of it is being grounded in one's own culture and not just picking up shiny bits from hither and yon.
Me, I love my Kali lunchbox. And in Witch I'd call her “Old Night.” Space. Big Blue Star Mama. The Void. Whew!
I'm right here with ya sistah…and I own a Shiva and Hanuman lunchbox.
interesting question, Kali Ma and Durga , Hecate, Diana and Innana. Can not be satisfied with just one. lol